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New Brunswick Dream

by The Ruddy Man

I was shot out of a cannon in Las Vegas when a troop of large monkey bats swooped down and ate your mom.  I shouted and felt the years of creamed spinach in my spine.  I slipped into this room of spent hypos and a lot of dirty mattresses and some woman speaking Mexican about me and smoking generic cigarettes and Sally Jesse was in a torn negligée holding a cup full of pencils and acting like she was the average American housewife, the average scum-sucking psychedelic load-licking life-form I was always looking for.  Still, even as a terrible storm came upon us, I thought of elephants in granny panties.  I was petting my pet and thinking I could eat a whole box of Ring Dings, the one thing in my life that's worth smashing the television for.  Flip through 130 channels till I feel Dick Cavett crawling up my ass trying to tickle my brain.  I heard the sound of cough syrup beating in my head like a jar.  Coagulating spurts of sperm that blew the fuck out of our stiff necks in the dark room of Universal Space Platform 4.  Spew that continued infinitely into an unknown stratosphere while all my beans overflowed onto the carpet.  Then I cried like a late August afternoon, red as your hemorrhoid face pleading for more chop steaks running through my heart with the vengeance of a thousand angry nights.  When the pain is too long for the darkness. The last time I walked into the Chess King at the mall to buy a white plain shirt, I was slugged over the head by gigantic grunge music, strobe lights and a salesgirl with big hair and large clams and mussels and oysters and words that rhyme with spam and a non-illustrated book about birds.  Birds.  What's your pleasure, sailor? Suck or fuck?  He touched himself and turned the tourniquet tight as he shot testosterone directly into his all American beef frank.  Mustard isn't ageless.  He loved me, too.  Wouldn't admit it. Woody.  Boner.  Hard-on.  Boa constrictor.  Cum shot.  Elvis got low, down by Hell.  But no lower than the slow fuzzy beat of the egg nog floating in your shoulder socket.  Get past scientology and democracy then you can call yourself an artist.  So there you are lizard mother, "I love you."